When you hit me for the first time for that narcotics, I knew that you could not love me anymore, but I was pregnant 7 months old and could not imagine how I could be a mother without you. That was one of my endless mistakes about you and my self. I ruined my child"s life along mine with these stupid fears of being a single mother. Anyway, after several times that you hit me just because of  my objection to your behaviour, I ended up with this belief that you will never love me again. I stoped loving you, but with the memory of our past love, I decided to live with you; with this unbelievable  hope that someday you"ll change your way, for the sake of our sweet little boy. but now I completely give up on you and looking forward to seprate my own life and my son from yours... I have to save my son"s life. this is my duty... because this was me who chose you as his father- the biggest mistake I"ve evere made. You know what? I"m sure you have never loved me before. Not only today. you just lied to me about your untrue love. It was my stupid self, who wanted to believe your lies. It"s all on me, but you were a SOB, you betrayed me,  with another girl; but you came to me for marriage. I don"t know why???  You were hiding her photos in your mobile for a while until I asked you to erase them, unaware that I"m keeping one of them for you: You two shameless people, in Turkey hand-holding on a ship. At the first place you told me, she was a total stranger you met; And I was so naive, that I"ve believed you; I was such a fool. But recently, you admitted, she was your mistress. What I hated the most was hearing lies: you said you lied about her to calm me down. but when I wanted to delet her photo for good you were forbidden me. I hate you. I... Have you, ever loved me for a sec???? I can"t talk to you about my feelings because this is a waste of time and my breath.... you"re a big bad lier, unreliable, scurrilous, hateful eight in one package, you are a collection of anything bad and mischievous and evil in the world...